social phobia

人生中免不了各种社交场合，看似热络的寒暄，却意外地如此空泛。
不喜欢这种场合，宁愿自在的待在家。厌倦做一个虚假的女孩，迎合他人，强颜欢笑。好累。
不能更做自己一点吗?

虽然是用一只手机一把吉他和一只猫做出来的歌，却完整诉说了我的内心话。

Get used to being alone with myself.
To stay at my house with my cat.
The sun shines outside but I don’t wanna get out of my bed.

People pretend to care about you
But they do this just to defuse the awkward atmosphere.
I’d rather spend time with myself. Living in my own world til I die.

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.
(喂～）（今天你有空吗 要不要出来走走）（不要 今天我想待在家里 发呆）

I kinda have a social phobia.
Don’t know how to blend into the crowd.
I thought I was just shy, turns out it’s not the reason.
It’s my lack of social skills in my bones.

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.

Can’t fit in. Feeling excluded
Am I the only one who think this way?

Lots of fake laughs. Lots of dumb actions.
It’s not the real me smiling at you.
Tired of being a fake girl.
Wish I could disappear into this conversation.

The muscles in my face were intensely shaking.
Seemingly they want me to stop abusing them.
Better run away to release my sore cheeks.

Isn’t it better to be the real me？
（好啦好啦我们出去吧）