i don't

Bystie - i don't
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| Producer 制作人 - Bystie |
| Lyricist, Composer 作词作曲 - Bystie, Xure |
| Arranger 编曲 - Bystie |
| Recording, Mixing & Mastering 音讯处理 - Bystie |

You threw away my heart but I broke yours first
Reminiscin’ memories just makes me more hurt
Walkin’ through your block, been thinkin’ ‘bout how I blew the bond
Saw you tyin’ shoes and movin’ on, it’s fuckin’ torture
Starin’ at your story on Instagram, Facebook
Stuck in a trap, but I stayed put
Still actin’ like every little matter stays good
But when I hide, I’m a different man they wouldn’t see
Still toxic even when we’re breakin’ up
A fiend for your attention like it still ain’t enough
Only one path and it’s a cliff
And I’m the only one afraid to jump
It’s time to succumb
‘Cause I don’t know when the calm phase’ll come
If I keep procrastinatin’, prolongin’ when the pain punchin’
Paid the price, though I may look dumb
When I stayed and tried to regain your trust now it’s done
And it’s ‘cause-
I don’t know why I’m passive, don’t know why I’m cold
I don’t know how to get my emotions in control
I don’t know what I’m worth, don’t know why you were here
I don’t know why’d you say nothin’ ‘bout it then disappear
Mistaken it as fake
But everything is considered as frank until it ain’t
Want it to remain great, but why would you stay with all the pain?
I’m the one that should be placed with all the blame
‘Cause I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to lo-o-ove
And I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to love
Without soundin’ like a liar
I did choose to glorify my contribution more than
Every time that you supported
I viewed the relationship too important
Used to complain about how there’s only “Good nights” and “Guten Morgens”
Now I could really use some more of ‘em
A loop is formed when I was self-hating
Even the image of you’s distorted
But something’s still stubbornly stoppin’ me from movin’ forward
So I- (what?!) avoid the fuckin’ topic (what?! what?!)
Had to admit it, the story wasn’t charmin’
Hurts me to conclude it every point of time they brought it up
“Yeah, she had enough ‘cause the boy is fuckin’ toxic”
(Toxic, toxic) Had been growin’ but I stopped it
Everything of you feels foreign but it’s honest
Childish acts are what I destroyed the fuckin’ bond with
Could’ve acted my role, I forfeited the option
‘Cause- (what?!) I don’t know how to cherish you
Now I’m fallin’ fast, need a parachute
On my bed without strength, I can barely move
Got some sad thoughts, but I don’t know where to spew
I wasn’t there for you when you could be handed help
Stacked my emotions on yours, I don’t handle ‘em well
You don’t answer my cell
I know you’re disappointed in me, ‘cause I am as well
‘Cause I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to lo-o-ove
And I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to love
Without soundin’ like a liar
All the lack of communication ain’t stable
Tried to see the next chapter, but the page broke
Still feel powerless when my mind repeats the same show
It’s time to let the pain go
‘Cause I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to lo-o-ove
And I don’t, I don’t
I don’t know how to love
Without soundin’ like a liar
I built it all with lies
I’m a liar in disguise
Even fooled myself this time
Fooled myself this time