what was i made for - Billie Eilish Cover by Pang Pang

2024.4.28 -
这阵子的经历，让我想起了这首Billie Eilish与他哥哥为电影“芭比”所写出的”What was I made for”。我们可能都会在潮起潮落中迷惘著，看著事情从好到坏，然后开始怀疑自己，是不是错了，我所做的一切，究竟是为著什么…？本以为随著年龄增长，心理建设会越来越坚韧，可当遇上了每一个的夜深人静，有时候挫折和惶恐就会突然出现，然后开始蚕食你对所有事物的热情与信念。

而音乐对我来说就像一种救赎，演唱给谁听也好，多少人听也罢，我会发布这些cover或是之后的创作，都是对我自己的疗愈，分享，只是想，如果有人有类似的经历，也许也能疗愈他，然后共勉之。

我今后也会继续分享，也会开始放创作，可能有时更新的快，可能有时慢，但我会持续下去，直到我的肉身不允许我在做这件事为止。

至于音乐这个兴趣的开端，这又是一个故事了…

I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?
Takin' a drive, I was an ideal
Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real
Just something you paid for
What was I made for?
'Cause I, I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday, I might
Someday, I might
When did it end? All the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my lover
It's not what she's made for
What was I made for?
'Cause I, 'cause I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Someday I might
Think I forgot how to be happy
Something I'm not, but something I can be
Something I wait for
Something I'm made for
Something I'm made for