18

这首歌在voice memo和garageBand 里 躺了好久。
高中考完学测那一年开始写歌，那时候17岁，很焦虑、很害怕
长大，因为觉得自己什么事都没做就要成年了，所以在18岁生日的前几天写了这首歌。

之前看过有人说，过几年后再回去听自己以前写的歌，就不再有写歌当下的情绪或感受了。
这个夏天我就要22岁了，我还是一样对于年纪一直增长却还是一事无成感到很迷茫、焦虑。希望有一天当我听我以前写的东西的时候，能想著“我已经不那样想了，我已经没有那种感觉了。”

虽然放在这里没有人会听或看，反正就当一个纪录。
2024.7.10

ps. 照片是我18岁的生日蛋糕

oh, how can I put it?
it’s getting old
I can’t hide it anymore
well, how do I explain?
I don’t even know
it’s been bothering me for so long

it isn’t that fun growing up
I don’t want it no more
I’m so scared of getting old
I’m not ready for eighteen
I’m obsessed with people on the internet
I’m nothing compared to them
when will I stop feeling sorry for myself
still on my way to happiness
I’m not ready for it
but I’m over eighteen

gone, my childhood is gone
it hurt to the core
I never felt this way before
hey, can I take it slow?
it doesn’t show
but I’m the one who needs time to grow

it isn’t that fun growing up
I don’t want it no more
I’m so scared of getting old
I’m not ready for eighteen
I’m obsessed with people on the internet
I’m nothing compared to them
when will I stop feeling sorry for myself
still on my way to happiness
I’m not ready for it
but I'm over eighteen