我渴望的 All I Ever Wanted (Original Guitar Memo 6/22)

相遇那天
你问了“你理想中的爱是什么样子？”
我回了你“一个家”

我跟你叙述了我的原生家庭
也分享了路上的老夫老妻还能手牵手走著
总让我妒忌

你曾说我在经过的那些烂事之后
我值得你所有的爱
现在你说我就是妄想症：
“你他妈又想沟通什么了？”

我一直想要的
只是睡前耍废抱在一起
感受你右腿在我膝盖上的重量
在晚上十点十分 吃著炸鸡看摩登家庭
但你想要拥有更多来掩饰你的自卑
因此为了自尊及社会的期望
你最终抛下了唯一拥有过真实的东西 我

6/22 你在外讨著关注来满足你的自大
我却一个人守在家
你有闪过一丝我的念头吗？
我明明就坐在窗台等著一则
你连传送都不愿意的讯息

你说我太大惊小怪了
但我明明在说实话 对吧？
“我都在你身边了 你到底还想要我怎样？”

我一直想要的
只是睡前耍废抱在一起
感受你右腿在我膝盖上的重量
在晚上十点十分 吃著炸鸡看摩登家庭
但你想要拥有更多来掩饰你的自卑
因此为了自尊及社会的期望
你最终抛下了唯一拥有过真实的东西 我

看你长成一个男人 不是我的职责了
我没办法把你变成你成为不了的角色
我也庆幸那个生命没有来到家里
你看看我爸对我做了什么
又看看你已经对我做了什么

我一直想要的
只是睡前耍废抱在一起
感受你右腿在我膝盖上的重量
在晚上十点十分 吃著炸鸡看摩登家庭
但你想要拥有更多来掩饰你的自卑
因此为了自尊及社会的期望
你最终抛下了唯一拥有过真实的东西 我

我一直想要的只是你答应给我的家

On the day we met
You asked about 'what's your ideal kind of love'
And I replied, 'a home'
I told you 'bout my family
And how I envy the old couples in the streets
Walking hand in hand
You said I deserve all your love
After going through all the shit
Now you said I'm just delusional
'What the fuck you want to talk about again'
All I ever wanted
Was cuddling in bed with your right leg on my knee
Getting fried chicken, 10 after 10 watching Modern Family
But you wanted more to cover up all that inferiority
So you settled for the world by throwing away your only real thing
Me
Twenty-second of June
You're out getting attention to fill your arrogance
And I'm left alone
Did I ever cross your mind?
When I'm sitting by the window waiting for a text
That you didn't even bother to send
You said I'm being dramatic
Saying words that spoke the truth
'Am I not already next to you?'
'What the hell am I supposed to do?'
All I ever wanted
Was cuddling in bed with your right leg on my knee
Getting fried chicken, 10 after 10 watching Modern Family
But you wanted more to cover up all that inferiority
So you settled for the world by throwing away your only real thing
Me
It's not my duty
To watch you grow up into a man
I can't turn you into something you're not
And I'm glad the baby
Didn't come into this family
Look what my dad did to me
And look what you've already done to me
When all I ever wanted
Was cuddling in bed with your right leg on my knee
Getting fried chicken, 10 after 10 watching Modern Family
But you wanted more to cover up all that inferiority
So you settled for the world by throwing away your only real thing
Me
(Was cuddling in bed with your right leg on my knee)
(10 after 10 watching Modern Family)
All I ever wanted was the home you promised me