Broken (Home-alone session)

那正午夜时分
我边哭边打给了Anita
出现在她的酒吧后
才认知到这次连威士忌都救不了我了

因为我遇到了一个男孩
他没有拥有一切 却能用烂笑话让我笑的跟小朋友一样
每次我想留下的时候
又怕受伤 用最苛薄的方式回避他
看看我的预设与自我保护都做了些什么
我残破不堪了

那正夜时分
是我们第一次背对背睡觉
我是很想转过去的
但也许这样他就会在造成伤害前离开我了吧

但我希望他能知道
每次他说“我又做错了什么”时
我心如刀割
到底该怎么解释 我每次依赖了别人
教会了我不再去随便依靠

但我想再爱人 我也很努力了
我不想自己残破不堪而失去你
我不想继续残破不堪了

Was in the middle of the night
I called Anita, soaked in tears
And there I was at her bar
But this time even whiskey can’t fix me anymore

‘Cause I met a boy who doesn’t have everything
But made me feel like a little girl with his stupid jokes
Every time I feel like staying
I push him away in all the cruelest ways
My assumptions and I
Look at what we’ve done
I’m broken
I’m broken

Was in the middle of the night
For the first time, we were sleeping back to back
I wanted to turn around
But maybe this way
He will leave before more damage is done

But I hope he knows
How it kills me every time he says
‘What did I do wrong’
How do I try to explain
Not relying is not having risk at all
But I want to love again
I’m trying
I don’t want to stay broken
I don’t want to stay broken