Reckless Driver in a Cadillac

是我太大胆了吗
是我太真实了吗
是我太直接了吗
是我浪漫主义吗
是我在幻想吗
是我又在过度分享了吗
也许真的是我无助吧 还是我就是那种女生

因为我想要约会
因为我真的在乎
因为我沟通了
因为我表现出我的好感了
因为我试著理解他
因为我以为他跟其他人不一样
但我也没好到哪去
看看同样的事情已经伤害我几次了

我想我在等著他来伤害我
我想我太想占有他了
我想著至死不渝 但我却先一个人死了

我是开著凯迪拉克的失控驾驶
我是不快乐的乐观主义者
我是在十天内失去一个男生的女孩
也许本来会拥有一切的
但我写出来的结尾却跟电影截然不同

是我太没耐心了吧
是我太强势了吧
是我太勇敢还是疯了呢
是我太直接了吧
是我太紧握著不放了吧
是我造成他太多压力了吧
也许他真的是好意的
又或许只是我在凭空想像而已

但他亲了我的脖子
他在床上抱著我
还说我可能会是家人
但他接著放慢了脚步
接著又消失了 说著“我需要厘清一下”
我以为我是对的
但也许这次他才是明智的那个

我想我在等著他来伤害我
我想我太想占有他了
我想著至死不渝 但我却先一个人死了

我是开著凯迪拉克的失控驾驶
我是不快乐的乐观主义者
我是在十天内失去一个男生的女孩
也许本来会拥有一切的
但我写出来的结尾却跟电影截然不同

Am I being too bold?
Am I being too real?
Am I being too straightforward?
Am I romanticising?
Am I hallucinating?
Am I oversharing again?
Maybe I’m just hopeless
or maybe I’m just that kind of girl
‘Cause I wanted to hangout
And I actually cared
And I communicated
‘Cause I showed my interest
And I tried to know him
And I thought he’ll be different
But I’m nevertheless
Look how many times did the same thing break my heart
I think I waited for him to hurt me
I think I wanted him so desperately
I think about 'til death do us apart'
But I died alone instead
I’m the reckless driver in a Cadillac
I’m the optimist who’s always sad
I’m the girl who lost a guy in ten days
It could’ve been everything
But the end is not even close to the screenplay

Was I being impatient?
Was I being aggressive?
Was I being brave or insane?
Was I speaking out loud?
Was I holding too tight?
Was I causing too much pressure?
Maybe he’s got good intentions
Or maybe I’m building castles in the air
But he kissed on my neck
And he held me in bed
And he said I could be family
But then he slowed it down
And then he disappeared
And said ‘I need to figure us out’
I thought I did it right
but maybe he’s the wise one this time
I think I waited for him to hurt me
I think I wanted him so desperately
I think about 'til death do us apart'
But I died alone instead
I’m the reckless driver in a Cadillac
I’m the optimist who’s always sad
I’m the girl who lost a guy in ten days
It could’ve been everything
But the end is not even close to the screenplay