17. Love and Blood

我会把伤疤当作皇冠戴著
你会听见我的声音在你耳边呢喃
所有的火灾水患
都是我人生中 爱与泪与血的证据

我坐在计程车上 想著我到底做了什么
来来去去的那些男生和歌曲
那些选择真的有这么糟糕吗？
我太不中立了 我需要来人帮我裁决

我喝著shot 想著事情怎么演变成这样
现在的我不是应该更开心才对吗？
在我这二十几岁的年纪 我依然不知道
今晚 明天 后天的我会在哪里

我知道我把近期所有一切都搞砸了
也看不清楚发生了什么事
我是由过去那些玻璃碎片拼凑出来的
会成为武器或是镜球呢？我也还不知道
但只要光里还存在著黑暗
我就能继续闪耀

我知道他们在我背后说了些什么
我讨厌势力 和道义规矩 及所有的伪装
我知道我正在深水里沉溺
沉没在紧绷中 背后的操作中 和不成文规定里

在好与坏中总是有些挣扎与拉扯
我甚至做了根本不后会的决定
有些日子我还是会想家
但明明我正躺在床上不是吗？

（只要光里还存在著黑暗 我就能继续闪耀）
（你会听见我的声音在你耳边呢喃）

所有的火灾水患
都是我人生中 爱与泪与血的证据

I’ll be wearing my scars like a crown
And you’ll hear the echoes of my sound
Chanting in your ears
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life
I’m sitting in the taxi thinking where have I been
Kept going back and forth
Boys to boys, songs to songs
All the choices were they really that wrong
I’m too confused
I need to call an adjudication
I’m doing my shots thinking what it went wrong
Shouldn’t I be more happy with what’s going on
In my life, late 20s
I still don’t know where I’ll be
Tonight, tomorrow, or the day after that
I know I’m fucked up recently
And I can’t see clearly
I’m pieced together with broken
scattered mirrors from my past
A weapon or a disco ball
I haven’t got a clue
But I’d shine
Still shine for there is darkness in the light
I know the things they say behind my back
I hate the power and the formal manners
And the pretence
I feel myself drowning under deep waters
Intensity and behind-the-scenes
And unwritten guidelines
There are struggles from the good and the bad
I made poor decisions even though I didn’t regret
There are days that I think about home
Even when I’m in my pjs in my bed
I know I’m fucked up recently
And I can’t see clearly
I’m pieced together with broken
scattered mirrors from my past
A weapon or a disco ball
I haven’t got a clue
But I’d shine
Still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
I’d shine, still shine for there is darkness in the light
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
You’ll hear the echoes of my sound, chanting in your ears
I’ll be wearing my scars like a crown
And you’ll hear the echoes of my sound
Chanting in your ears
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life
Of all the fire and all the flood
They’re proof of love and blood
Of my life, from my life, of my life