something more (ffs)

词：sarya ; 曲：sarya

这首歌非常沮丧，因为每天都要找自己想做的事情
人需要做对自己有意思的东西，偶尔会找不到方向
当想不起来的时候，会非常沮丧

我知道一直都有机会把自己变得更厉害有趣，但当下自己可能只想偷懒
不过总是不得不被迫地往前，寻找对自己有意义的东西

但我当下真的只想偷懒
就算妈曾对我说：我必须要庆幸自己还有时间在胡思乱想......
(ok, 你说的没有错)

i wake up every morning trying to find something to do
whether it means walking to work
or making breakfast for you

what we’re supposed to accomplish
i have no fucking clue
but it’s nice and not nice to constantly have to choose

perhaps i’ll apply myself and work towards my goals
or stay in bed, get lazy, or wander around in the cold
reflect and see which activities stir this lost soul
to live an idle life with no impact, would i be so bold?

i try to want something more
in this life
in this life

[small talk]

perhaps i will go volunteer for the community
perhaps i will stay in, eat cereal and watch tv
do you know what my mother used to say to me?
"you’re just lucky you have time to waste
overthinking"

i try to want something more
in this life
in this life

[what am i doing
i am so tired
but i didn’t do anything productive]

[i am so sleepy
i just want to lie in
today not the day when i change the world]

[i can’t seem to focus on anything today
but i have so much to do
so much to do]