DEITY

神的堕落自白

I used to bless the rain, now I curse the drought.
They built a church on my grave and prayed me out.
Holy water turned to tar, angels grew a second face.
I’m the god you broke,
then put back in the wrong place.
My halo is a noose now, my crown a ring of rust.
Every miracle I owe is covered in your dust.
You asked me for a sign, so I gave you the eclipse.
You asked for second chances, so I broke your fingertips.
I remember when I loved you, I was clean.
Now I live inside the static of a broken machine.
You carved my name in marble, then left it in the rain.
I turned your wine to water, and you never prayed again.
I walk through your abandoned temples, the rats eat the bread.
Your effigies are missing hands, your psalms are all unsaid.
Someone lit a candle for me, it melted on the floor.
I used to answer every knock. Now I don't know the door.
I was the light you took for granted, the shadow you ignored.
Now I am the god of orphans, the patron saint of the sword.
You want a new religion? I'll sell you one for free.
It comes with empty heavens and a hollow oak tree.
I passed a child who prayed to me. She didn't know my name.
She asked for nothing but a dream that doesn't end in shame.
I wanted to reply, but my voice turned into flies.
So I just let the silence answer, and the darkness in her eyes.
This is not a curse. This is just what happens
when you tear a god apart.
You get a patchwork of devotion and a splintered, bleeding heart.
I am still here. I am still watching.
I am still the same old dirt.
But the love you left to rot inside me,
it turned into a hurt.
So light a match, burn the chapel, let the steeple fall.
I am not your savior. I am not here to hear you call.
I am the god of broken things, the king of what went wrong.
And you can sing your hymns without me.
I've been gone too long.
Gone too long...
Gone too long.