what i'm afraid

这是一首偏迷幻质感的Alternative R&B
失真吉他、glitchy 的节奏细节和低饱和的人声处理，被放在相对克制但持续推进的groove里
编曲/制作/混音/母带/封面设计/摄影/后期调色：delic

20岁生日当天，我写下了这首歌的demo.
从那时开始，我就想着：“20岁，我一定要做出一张属于自己的EP”

（封面基于delic真实拍摄的图片，仅使用人工智能AI辅助完成图像合成，总体调色与设计均由delic完成）

I just want to begin to know ya
(to begin to know ya)
It's hard to satisfy
(get no satisfied)
Hope you're not terrified
(I got terrified)
oh, can you tell me
How did I just pretend to know ya?
(pretend to know)
It makes me terrified
Will you be satisfied?
oh, maybe
I don't wanna be the one who has to show ya
(be the one who has to show ya)
Don't wanna do this all day
Cuz you gon' be sad
(to get sad)
Don't you know that
I just wanna get rid of this
(get rid, get rid, get rid of this)
Will you know this?
But you cannot just know this
But what I'm afraid…
is something
never really happened
But what I'm afraid…
is someone
that I'm really talking to…
But what you've just said,
was something that you went through
were secrets you could never talk about
But you don't
ever know
how it hurts to be
To be, to be, to be
If you…
You better hate me
But that's not what I want
What if you wanted a reason
But you have no time
Don't say "I'm too bad"
I don't doubt you
I don't mean to
But why must I just take it low?
(take it low)
I don't judge you
But it always gets me bending
like this
so, I don't know
One day I'll be left,
Just one day I will turn to…
I bet you won't even know
But I don't know
Me
Or the reason
That I keep on talking like this
I don't want to
See right through you
But why's it all I got to get through
And I don't know the reason for staying here
But I must keep doing
Doing the things I hate
If you…
You'd better want me
But I have no time
What if you wanted the reason
But time won't make it last
Don't say "I'm too bad"
I hate it
most
always someone "talking" you
("talking" you)
And "teaching" you
(“teaching” you)
But they don’t know
(they don’t know)
what I’m gonna do
他们不知道
不能说
不想说
所有的事情
编曲/制作/混音/母带/封面设计：delic