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我的22岁，压垮骆驼的最后一根稻草是对面邻居顶楼种的火龙果。

我觉得羡慕跟忌妒是人之常情，在今年疫情肆虐下的应届毕业生，是否多了份挫折、愤怒以及迷惘...没有毕旅的挫折、没有毕典的愤怒、即将被推向社会的迷惘......阿 我要读研，再给我多迷惘两年好了。歌词中都是真实发生的我的情况，那是来自一位即将23岁的老年轻人的惶恐。文法不对拜托纠正我，我英文烂爆。

你以为，这是一首正向纪录岁月的歌吗？
不是的，这首歌愤怒并且绝望。__ Sanna Liu

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词/曲 /Sanna Liu

The walking dead, is it talking about me?
The confusion of others will be answered at 18.
Already graduated from university, but l’m still worrying about this. uh…
Oh Live for more than four years, more panic.
The efforts and success of others 10 years early ,
What should I going to do…
Living without goal , without core , living without the power to chasing my dream.

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The dragon fruit grown on the neighbor opposite， it’s bears a lot.
The melon I planted was washed away by the heavy rain, only dead leaves and branches.
Even the flowers have no chance to bloom.
I pray that the fruit outside will fall and corrupt,
But they picked it on time.
I'm desperate,
The Flower buds in the mud were trampled by raindrops.

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The walking dead, that’s talking about me.
Overwhelmed by life and reality before I started.
There’s not only one sick person in the family, so am I.
I give up my dreams, give up love, give up hope, to lie,
just wanna share some little pressure.
But I didn't expect me to be assimilated.
Become so frustrated,
Believe in angels but no longer have faith.

“The daughter of that family on the corner gave a baby while ago . ”,
my mother said so.
Oh Why we always envy?
Why do women get married and have babies after all?
I’m too hope to that family parting ways so that I can laugh at.
But they lived a full life.
I let the world see my ugliness,
See how disappointed I am with my darkness innerr.

Is 22 a good start and source of hope？
No, just angry, desperate at all.
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行尸走肉，是在说我吗？
别人的迷惘在18岁就有解答
我却到了大学毕业还在为这件事烦恼
多活了四年多了更大的恐慌
别人的努力和成功早在10年前、
我该做些什么
没有目标、没有核心的活著 没有力气去追梦的过著

对面人家种的火龙果结了好多
我种的瓜却被大雨冲到只剩枯枝残叶
连花都没有机会绽放
我祈祷著对面的果实会因此坠落腐化
但他们却能准时摘下
我绝望著
瓜的花苞在泥沼中被雨点践踏

行尸走肉是在说我吧。
还没开始就先被生活与现实压垮
家里生病的人不只一个，我也是啊
我放弃梦想放弃爱情放弃希望 说了谎
为了只是要分担一些压力
却没想到我被同化
也变得如此沮丧
虽然相信天使但不再拥有信仰

街角那户人家的女儿又生了小宝宝
听著母亲这样说道
为什么总是羡慕著别人呢？
为什么女人终究要结婚生子呢？
我多期待那一家人分道扬镳好让我能够嘲笑
但是他们却如此美满幸福
我却让世界看到我多丑陋
看看我对自己内心的黑暗处有多失望

22岁的这年是一个好的开始、是希望的源头？
不是的，这一年 愤怒又绝望。