Childish Remedy

幼稚鬼的处方笺，大概就像是，每一次想为心爱的对象帮忙，却反过来被帮，那种感觉到自己很幼小、很无能的悲伤，但同时好像也因此被疗愈了一些什么～

October 11th 5:00p.m. before dinner at home
10月11号傍晚5:00的晚餐前时间
A tiny sparkle in my brain suddenly flits across
有一阵火光在我脑中迅速闪过

I wonder what that is
我在想那会是什么东西
Either inspiration or injury
是灵感还是创伤的记忆
Melody comes and goes
而旋律就如此地来了又走
Is it the time to seize it? but no,
是对的时机要捉住它了吗，但是不对呀

God, love isn't based on the ratio of right and wrong nor how it appears
神啊，爱不是建立在对错的相比或是他表面上看起来如何啊
Then why am I so frustrated whenever I notice I'm incomplete
既然如此，为什么每当我感受到自己的不完全的时候，都总是那么挫折呢

I wish I'm mature enough to give but end up with being the opposite one
我总希望我是成熟而能给予的，但反而都是被帮忙的一方
I feel myself childish
这让我觉得自己真幼稚
Or maybe it is the remedy
但也或许，这就是属于我的医治

Saturday morning is soothing
星期六的早晨总是疗愈
promenade in an autumn city
漫步在秋天的城市之中
I feel the warmth of your hand holding mine
我感受得到你握住我的手的温度
in my dream, saying, "no worries, you're good."
在梦中你对我说“没事的，你很好”
If I were just fumbling around all those years
如果这些年来我都只是在鬼打墙
What could’ve lead me to you
又有什么条件能引领我遇见你呢？
I feel warmth of your hand holding mine
我感受到你握住我的手的温度
when I'm on the bus
当我坐在公车上
as the world's rushing by
而整个世界都在无尽地奔驶的时候

I ain't got no eloquence
我没有辩才无碍的言词
But be vulnerable in peace,
而是安于待在软弱的状态里
Forgiveness ain't no oblivion
原谅绝非是遗忘
Or I’ll be doomed by sensitivity
否则敏感将会将我覆没